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The inveterate ghost made little headway at the party. Solemn and forlorn as can be what amounts to little more than a wisp of smoke, he promulgated a narrative concerning his own murder. A few among the guests were sympathetic; most coughed discreetly into their hands and turned away.

Later, the general topic of conversation among them turned in hushed and panicked tones towards the matter of terrible impending doom, but then intoxication set in, a humor took them, and they laughed at how they had, moments before, leapt at their own shadows. …


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We sat together in the ruins among pools of pinkish grey water and played board games into the night. Amidst the detonations, some chemical had been expelled into the streets, mixing with the rainwater and settling into bomb craters and the various concavities inherent to concrete laid over uneven ground, saturating the air with an unnatural, cloying sweetness vaguely reminiscent of strawberries. Half-buried under a fallen wall we found a game of Monopoly and squinted at the colorful paper money in the lamplight as we broke out the board and pieces.

A mosquito wandered into the lamp’s radius and I…


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This essay is also available as a podcast on anchor.fm and other platforms, and as a video on YouTube.

I want to open the show today by talking about someone for whom I have a great deal of respect. I’m not going to name him because I don’t want to call him out in a way that he might not be okay with, but he’s a fellow artist and performer whom I’ve had the pleasure of working with on two projects, as well as someone I know as a friend in a somewhat secondary…


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This essay is also available as a podcast on anchor.fm and other platforms, and as a video on YouTube.

Last week, I opened an essay with a description of the murder of George Floyd by the police officer Derek Chauvin by way of introducing the ongoing political unrest in the United States that was instigated by Floyd’s murder, and that by way of introducing a White House photo shoot at St. John’s Episcopal Church in Washington, D.C., which took place in the midst of the protests and which, for me, exemplifies the relationship between Christianity and white supremacy in this…


This essay is also available as a podcast on anchor.fm and other platforms.

On the evening of Monday, May 25th of this year, George Floyd, a 46-year old black man, purchased a pack of cigarettes from a convenience store in Minneapolis. Believing that Floyd had paid with a counterfeit bill, the employees of the store confronted him and then called the police. Minneapolis police officers Thomas Lane and J. Alexander Kueng arrived on the scene shortly after and detained Floyd until further backup arrived, that being the Minneapolis police officers Derek Michael Chauvin and Tou Thao, both of whom had…


For the last several months I’ve been publishing my work in parallel on Medium and on my own domain, asatanistreadsthebible.com. Medium is freely available, with a wide readership and good monetization options, and so I figured publishing here as well as on my own blog couldn’t hurt. Unfortunately, the response I’ve been getting on Medium, especially compared to my own domain, has been lackluster, and it’s no longer worth my time to republish my work here. …


אלוהים
Whether now it should be best to go homewards, there were none who said that it would be best in that to speak of returning.
Rather we said, “Let us be a new people in this old place.”
Always anew in your light.

אלוהים
When I came to sit at your feet, you said to me, “Of you I am well pleased.”
I realized that it is mine to say what you Are.

אלוהים
I am eternally thankful for all that I am,
Even such a rabid suffering as you have made.

O my love,
I saw you as I…


detail, The Resurrection of Lazarus, Bonnat 1833

Part of my series “A Satanist Reads the Bible,” in which I explore the Bible, Christianity, and other religions and their sacred texts through the lens of Satanism in order to reinvent religion for myself.

I’m cheating a little bit because this one isn’t actually in the Bible. But it very well could have been.

What we now call the New Testament is a curation of documents both authentic and forged, each culled from numerous extant versions, selected from a vast body of similar literature. The Biblical New Testament contains gospels (stories and sayings of Jesus), acts (histories of the…


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Part of my series “A Satanist Reads the Bible,” in which I explore the Bible, Christianity, and other religions and their sacred texts through the lens of Satanism in order to reinvent religion for myself.

For a long time, I had a post-it note on my bathroom mirror on which I had written: “You are going to die soon.” I had put it there after reading a quote by Steve Jobs expressing a similar sentiment. “Soon,” of course, is a relative term. Statistically, it’s most likely that I’ll be around for another 44 years (I checked the actuarial tables), but…


detail, Pharaoh gives Sarah back to Abraham, Isaac Isaacsz, 1640

Part of my series “A Satanist Reads the Bible,” in which I explore the Bible, Christianity, and other religions and their sacred texts through the lens of Satanism in order to reinvent religion for myself.

Most of my research has focused on stories in the Bible with which I am already familiar. Often I find in the text aspects to these stories of which I was not previously aware (such as Noah’s sacrifice to God after the flood), but I also find stories that I have never heard mentioned before at all. One of these follows after the stories of…

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